Today is Saturday, got woke up earlier than the other day and Alhamdulillah it was good and okay, pray for tahajjud and felt relieved than the past day, because of lazyness to pray tahajjud and today is the day, then as Subuh pray finished, and opened Quran for study a bit of Imam Amru before read it to Cikgu house, then open FYP and IB work, but never manage to focus what type of working need to settle with proper. Will get another time to do with it, InsyaAllah.
Unlucky when finish preparing stuff to Cikgu class, but however the class canceled by mama called, she got message from Cikgu but for me, never get in touch to my own Cikgu, a bit frust because I feel everytime I get to do things, mom always there, she’s just like my shadow...ok snap out of that, so I tell back the story, I get downstairs early today too, guessing to help mom’s work like cooking and cleaning kitchen, it’s okay then, no class but hoping other stuff can do with hot. Such as FYP and IB.
Unlucky to that I’ve noticed invited to go to one event from my old friend back when I was working as trainees about 6 months and he is like the a collegue good worker back moments in year 2009, at Uzma company, his name Rizal, got used to call him Abang Rizal and he always make me smile and he’s soooo cool whenever he treat me lunch and meals, I wish to get a real brother like him, or maybe some good character of husband like him, he’s married person. but I know what our limit relationship. Just a little sister and good worker to him, Ya Allah please help me to meet this good type of person one day, and I could not resist to see his invitation about Open day Smart Reader, at Shah Alam, I’m not married yet with no kids, so where is the point objective for coming to the invitation right, and yes i am unlucky, cannot attend and pretend you’re married to go to see Abang Rizal, another chances please.. let me meet this kind of good person, Amin,
I never get to say goodbye to Abang Rizal when he resign at Uzma, so let me realize this is where I knew that I’m not trusted person or any kind of important person to him, but weird thing is..is it weird maybe for me, err he did call me for the last time and say sorry any wrong doing from him to me, same goes to me it’s okay and I love you brother,
Another part I’ll never forget when I work there, the other staff were kind of fishing Rizal and me had something special relationship and good I put my status facebook is single, the other worker noticed my personal stuff, and I answered back for a safe cool respond that, I am not interested him, (back then remembering the moments the other worker were smiling and understand what am I saying that he’s married and I will never ever play to other man like that. If he was not married, I’ll start pick a line and love him. sigh,
Sorry for letting this blog to express my own feeling a bit and I feel good and better person. So forget the past thing, and improve to be better person at this present and future.

he wear specktacles and tall, i’m shy when everyone did surprise party on my 21 year old birthday moment, ok bai memories, everything is past right, so start looking for good mission wish list, to finish studies, get work, get good husband. amin

Ps- sometimes, fake smiles is good to other expression, and prentending everything is okay