English class and others

Today is a good day. Alhamdulillah, and I guess if you want something, then you need to pray and ask Allah. Allah knows the best. The class talking is okay and I tried to participate and engage in the classroom together with other. Even though I’m not a good talker, I’m just sitting and coming to the class with all friends and teacher.

Actually I did some homework yesterday and we learn it together today. Luckily, my mind is able to think quick from before. It happened when what Sashi write and I give some ideas and she wrote on the whiteboard. You’re a student and you can share some stories too. I had several problems talking in English which I’ve noticed is.. I’m not as friendly like others, I’m not good with speaking in front of people, and I always like to think what people said. The main thing is, I’m still learning to improve my ownself. Help me Allah, only you know what’s the best. Please guide me to be better person.

Moreover, there’s a news about my finding job. Before English c lass started, I received my mom call, she’s from clinic with Akram. It’s about job with CIMB. I manually send a resume to Kak Afiz yesterday, when mama told me she can help me with it. So I just try, I tried to call Kak Afiz and she told me back to send resume to certain email address. I was just noted and do as well she had told me. InsyaAllah everything goes well, and hopefully I manage to get my own job. InsyaAllah..

Ps- English written just today, English should be fun

Awkward days

Assalamualaikum, rasanya dah lama jugak tinggalkan blog biasa ni. So personal blog ni just berkaitan diri aku yang tak seberapa haaa. Sejak kebelakangan ni, aku rasa macam dilema. Mak aku masukkan aku kelas english talk, yes for a month with 12 lesson it should be useful for my ownself. And practices make perfect. The past few days I always got messages that I am not supposed to receive. Which is why I am trying to say is…use wisely with your number contact. eh english writing kaaa..

SCENE 1

Haa…cani cerita dia, Along yang aku kenal tinggal kat Terengganu ada add Facebook and he ada messages me with facebook and tried to get close with me. Faham? Gaya dia mesej macam nak berjiwang, bukannya aku nak perasan bajet hebat. tapi boleh dikatakan setiap hari dia akan mesej. Aku tak pernah nak suka kat dia selain daripada rasa hormat adik kepada abang. Just aku rasa kita ada batas perhubungan. Kau mintak nak dating ngan aku..padahal aku kata nama dating pada outing cukupla. Kau mula kata …cyg taktik tu akan jadi dan nak perangkap aku layan kau semua. Aku tak mengharapkan satu hubungan persaudaraan kita daripada sepupu jadi in a relationship. Sorry to say the truth, aku tak berani nak mesej dia since semalam bila dia mula bertanya, buat apa..mak masak apa. Minta maaf Along, bukannya Dayah nak sombong ke apa. Macam tak mau bagi harapan dan perasaan yang berlebihan Along yang macam nak jaga hati orang kl yang sangat sombong ni..cakap je la apa je aku tak mau peduli, aku kena tahu kau ada hati lelaki aku ni perempuan.

Hari ni pulak aku dah dapat dua mesej dia kata sorry kalau ada buat apape silap. No..xde apa silap. Aku memang tak salahkan kau. Maafmu saja eh kata xde silap, tapi aku rasa janggal tahu dak. Jangan layan macam aku kekasih hati kau cari la. Sebab tu aku kata jangan lekakan diri sendiri ter-biar ter-leka sambil bagi harapan padu kat kau yang sedang mencari calon isteri gitu.

SCENE 2

Sabtu lepas mama ajak me and her others friend to eat together. Motif perjumpaan tu sebenarnya nak bagi aku tengok anak buah Aunty Suraya namanya Fatah Ishak. Ala..sort of blind date tapi bukan blind date. kita just chill je makan buffet mama belanja kat KDE. Fatah tu tak tahu langsung aku datang kena tengok dia. Faiz siap sakat aku pandang sana sini, Kak ida, mama duduk bertentang, tapi aku duduk jauhla nak pandang sangat Fatah tak de rasa apa. Sebenarnya aku tak rasa apa sangat masa jumpa depan mata aku angkat mee kari depan dia. Bukan untuk dia, but Aunty dengan mama. Dia sibuk borak dengan Aunty kesayangan dia, aku layankan Faiz cakap tu.

Aku bukanla seorang perempuan yang jenis manja dan tergedik sangat nak carik calon suami. SEBABKAN mak aku je kata IKUT JE ikutla, so sampai bila boleh kau independent kalau IKUT JE..aku masih mencari jalan untuk berdikari dengan berani.

Betulla, kalau nak cari pasangan, cinta tu tak boleh dipaksa, sebab kalau ada keserasian tu mungkin jodoh tak kemana. SEMUA dah dirancang, balik je dari makan, Aunty su tanya kan mama..cuba berbaik dengan Fatah. Aku mulanya segan nak cerita panjang, dalam hati aku, kalau kau betul serius nak berkawan..MUNGKIN kau yang akan mulakan persahabatan. TAPI rupanya aku yang disuruh MAMA amik number tepon dia cubala berkenalan. Aku tak expect apa pasal cari jodoh ni, tapi kita boleh berkawan sudalaa.

Aku mesej dulu salam Maalhijrah, nasib baik dia balas. Aku nak mesej pon teragak-agak sebab mak aku yang paksa siap nak ajar bagai..nak rak. Aku bukan xreti semua ni, tapi jangan la buat aku yang desperate. Aku memang dah segan bila mama pass nombor dia petang tu, so aku decide nak mesej lepas isyak around 8.29, he message me back around11 malam. aku layan je sampai pukul 1245 pastu dah tertidur. Malas aku nak layan kalau kau buat nak tanak.

Aku dapat tau dia keje kat AIA.. ada kereta Toyota Camry < i hate kereta Toyota sebab otai gedabak, and I don’t know why bak buy his car with Vios Toyota. And never been drive that car…because of no interest. Ok pasal Fatah tu dia add Facebook aku, dan aku sekali lagi mesej dia dengan bahsa kan encik fatah. nak manja ke gitu tengokla xsampai ke mana kot, last time mesej aku tanya kenapa dia xmakan kat kde, and the last part aku just say take care,

Ok bye, never been asked to face this awkward moment but Allah only knows why.

Ps- I hope i have a job and passed my last exam

Superfan yuna, and yuna..

nadia is lucky here, mungkin dia salah satu peminat teramat lagilagilagila kan yuna. oke aku jeles dan dengki, aku tak ada masa nak stalk yuna sekarang,finals exam is coming and report nak kena catch up. nadia.. youuuu masuk international website lepas kena interview la glemelahhh, read pasal she is superyunnie (yunnie..comel la yunnie er, aku xsuka nama tu actually…tapi redha haha jeles ke, dah memang tula nama peminat fan dorang bubuh, read here because of what yunnie)

http://bubbleberry.tumblr.com/

wait, napa post pasal superfan but not yuna..argh, takpe 2in 1 category

“And my boyfriend [Laughs]. I have a really good relationship with my boyfriend. He is like my best friend. We talk like 300 times a day. He’s like one of the stable things in my life, and I know I can count on him if I’m down or tired with work.” (> 300 times waw..good best friend ney)

-from yuna interview here

ok, dear yuna yang aku leplep dan yang busy, i wish i know you more, but crap tu semua berangannnn

 

Ps- hoping that i can do well with online test today

Petang

Waktu mula petang, langit berubah warna, waktu mula petang, kanak-kanak di suruh masuk ke rumah di ingat jangan main nyorok-nyorok sampai ke petang takut di apa-apa kan, waktu petang sebelum maghrib aku bagaikan diarah automatik oleh diri sendiri untuk mandi sebelum malam, dan waktu petang kerja kan perkara yang sepatutnya dilakukan kerja-kerja lain.

Petang tadi aku temani mama, petang tadi aku beli barang rumah untuk mengisi barang yang telah kehabisan, petang tadi juga aku minta mama belikan jagung panas belanja kan makan, aku dengan petang, sekian.

 

Ps- Muhasabah diri dan kerja melalui entry petang tadi, petang entry aku memang bosan, supposedly to control myself and speak with english stories, sigh, okbai

Marahkan satu perkara !

My cat pee on my bed, stinky cat, damn, no more miss lovely dayah to meow, this is war

 

ps- i love you too amani, sorry not related picture

Twisted feeling and unlucky or what

Today is Saturday, got woke up earlier than the other day and Alhamdulillah it was good and okay, pray for tahajjud and felt relieved than the past day, because of lazyness to pray tahajjud and today is the day, then as Subuh pray finished, and opened Quran for study a bit of Imam Amru before read it to Cikgu house, then open FYP and IB work, but never manage to focus what type of working need to settle with proper. Will get another time to do with it, InsyaAllah.

Unlucky when finish preparing stuff to Cikgu class, but however the class canceled by mama called, she got message from Cikgu but for me, never get in  touch to my own Cikgu, a bit frust because I feel everytime I get to do things, mom always there, she’s just like my shadow...ok snap out of that, so I tell back the story, I get downstairs early today too, guessing to help mom’s work like cooking and cleaning kitchen, it’s okay then, no class but hoping other stuff can do with hot. Such as FYP and IB.

Unlucky to that I’ve noticed invited to go to one event from my old friend back when I was working as trainees about 6 months and he is like the a collegue good worker back moments in year 2009, at Uzma company, his name Rizal, got used to call him Abang Rizal and he always make me smile and he’s soooo cool whenever he treat me lunch and meals, I wish to get a real brother like him, or maybe some good character of husband like him, he’s married person. but I know what our limit relationship. Just a little sister and good worker to him, Ya Allah please help me to meet this good type of person one day, and I could not resist to see his invitation about Open day Smart Reader, at Shah Alam, I’m not married yet with no kids, so where is the point objective for coming to the invitation right, and yes i am unlucky, cannot attend and pretend you’re married to go to see Abang Rizal, another chances please.. let me meet this kind of good person, Amin,

I never get to say goodbye to Abang Rizal when he resign at Uzma, so let me realize this is where I knew that I’m not trusted person or any kind of important person to him, but weird thing is..is it weird maybe for me, err he did call me for the last time and say sorry  any wrong doing from him to me, same goes to me it’s okay and I love you brother,

Another part I’ll never forget when I work there, the other staff were kind of fishing Rizal and me had something special relationship and good I put my status facebook is single, the other worker noticed my personal stuff, and I answered back for a safe cool respond that, I am not interested him, (back then remembering the moments the other worker were smiling and understand what am I saying that he’s married and I will never ever play to other man like that. If he was not married, I’ll start pick a line and love him. sigh,

Sorry for letting this blog to express my own feeling a bit and I feel good and better person. So forget the past thing, and improve to be better person at this present and future.

 

he wear specktacles and tall, i’m shy when everyone did surprise party on my 21 year old birthday moment, ok bai memories, everything is past right, so start looking for good mission wish list, to finish studies, get work, get good husband. amin

 

Ps- sometimes, fake smiles is good to other expression, and prentending everything is okay

Random recipe and today is today

I just open on one blog and i noticed a doctor blog, her entry was so-so and kind of interesting to do, but here i found her recipe of nasi ayam penyet, please google if you don’t know that kind of easy food:

The ingredients:

1. cili segenggam- besar dan kecil pandai2 la adjust nak pedas camana
2. belacan
3. bawah putih 2 ulas
4. bawang merah kiut2 dalam 3 ulas
5. minyak 

cara2:

1. goreng semua bahan2 dengan minyak. hati2 tau cili tu pom pom.
2. dah masak agak2 korang, jangan garing tau, korang pindah la masuk blender or lesung batu
3. apa lagi, giling la or blend sampai halus

Done

“okay yang penting tu kan sambalnya.” > her entry says like it is easy to make, but for me..do you think i can handle this or what –.* and some features or add on what she says > “jadi korang sila la sediakan ayam goreng, tempe goreng, terung goreng, ape2 jela yang korang suka goreng untuk dimakan bersama sambal ni”

“jangan lupa lalapannya - ulam la maksudnya. biasanya yang dimakan dengan tempe penyet ni adalah timun batang, kubis, kacang panjang, daun kemangi.
dah..makan dengan nasik panas2. nak sedap lagi , makan dengan kicap sket. opss kicap dari indonesia tau. contohnya kicap Bango atau kicap ABC yang dah masuk ke Malaysia”

Just for sharing, if i did manage to do this recipe successfully  i’ll capture picture, so that’s all, bye

Ps- Today, i’ve started study Quran with Imam Amru