Event engagement day Jad

Hari takla hujan. Pagi awal jam 10 pagi..mama ajak pegi kedai Gulatis. Sebenarnya nak beli tudung baru kat Kain Gulatis. Tapi kedai tu tak bukak lagi dah pukul 10.30 pagi, so kami masuk jap kat dalam Ampang Point. Aku ikutkan aje mama..las-las dapatla dia sehelai kain lembut kalet ijau muda. Tak berkenan sebenarnya aku tengok kain tudung tu, tapi dah mama nak jugak. So, takde bantahan..empunya diri nak beli..belila satu pastu balik. Mama nak pakai kain tudung tu kat majlis pertunangan jad kat Hulu Langat.

Kami dah bersiap dekat jam 12 tengahari, aku turun je bawah tangga kemudian Along bukak pintu pesan..”Bagitau mama, along tak pergi majlis tunang jad”..aku katala, “nak cancel last minit pegi cakapla mama”….katanya Along ada keje, bos panggil tetiba. Mama terkejut macam tak boleh terima. Sebab kalau tak nak pergi cakapla terus terang, tadek paksaan. Sambil di janji demi Allah dia ada kerja, bukan nya sesuka hati. Aku pun malas nak bertekak..sebab plan nak gerak dari rumah jam 12 jadi 12.20tengahari.. Aku kata kalau tak nak pegi sudahla..Aku amik kunci kereta Vios yang aku dah on terus tutup. Sebab ikutkan plan kalau Along ikut..nanti dia drive dengan Vios. Bila mama nak drive, dia bawak kereta Merc. Aku bukanla suka sangat kereta mercedez, tapi macam orang nampak kaya sangat kalau kita pakai kereta mewah. Lagi elok biarlah bersederhana kan?

Mama drive to Masjid Sultan..ikut perjanjian tunggu kat masjid area Hulu langat sebelum pergi rumah orang tuan rumah. Aku dah agak pon..kita datang mesti awal, tengokla 1240 pm dah terpacak kat masjid. Dorang sume datang dekat jam 110, time Zohor..pastu barula gerak.

Malangnya, bila dah datang awal kami keluar dari masjid lewat plak. Kata nak konvoi sama-sama..pastu kita bolehla catch up, tapi kena tinggal pulak. Akram yang lambat keluar dari masjid. Kami pun silap, sibuk nak tunggu Mak long solat nak jaga barang-barang dia hilang karang, aku pon tak call Akram..cepat masuk dalam kereta kita dah nak gerak. Sampai je nak keluar masjid, aku call Jannah..jangan laju sangat..kitorang mana tau..sib bek nampak Jad..dia tunggu kita balik. Kita manala tau kat area tu, rumah pedalaman kat area lembah azuwin.

Majlis pertunangan Jad ngan Ella berjalan lancar sampai ke petang. Aku agak dalam pukul 4 pm kita ada kat rumah. Memang betul balik ke petang, makan time 2.30..bincang balik lepas makan, pastu ada sesi bergambar, excited kot sedara mara aku bila nak bergambar. Aku malas nak amik port bergambar tak ada semangat. Aku jadi tukang amik gambar tapi malu-malu segan sikit, sebab tu rumah orang yang nak bertunang. Setakat tolong amik gambar sikit-sikit takpe :)

Ps- Rasanya bila dah tunang, maybe ujung next year dah bole nak kahwin..aku tengah carik calon lelaki g…so kalau ada yang tanya..bila plak hari tunang-kahwin…insyaAllah lambat lagi

Wedding Jannah-Abang Hazril

Jannah is my cousin. She’s 24 and had five siblings. I’m 23 and single. Congratulations for your wedding. Long live happily ever after. Happy marriage. May Allah bless you and us

    

Family Jannah and atuk

Ps- Next event is her twin brother; Jad is getting engaged on this Saturday

Weekends

Salam.

Today weekends we did some fun weekend with families. I mean my brother and me hang out together straight away after mama and me going to the Pasar tani then to Kelas Ustaz. Right after kelas, we planned to watch Songlap movie and we made it. We watched movie at Galaxy MBO on 12:15pm and played arced games. After finished watching movies then we go back home.

Then, after Asar prayer, mama said to me to bring along racket badminton. The KDE in Ampang was fully booked court to other people and we can’t play there. And we ended up going outside and walked togethe and do healthy first at the gym. And actually mama and me manage to play badminton together this game played only in our surrounding house.

Back at night, I opened up Facebook and find out that some of my friends are looking different like not the same way I’ve seen. What I mean is some of them was working and have good life, and some of them are quite arrogant when I asked them and they does not answer and make a respond. I feel a bit down with every friends who ignored to my simple question. There’s nothing to be shame and I hope we can still be friends. No matter what happens, happens and I believe there’s a faith and magical power.

Ps- Hoping to get real job and btw my lil bro got his new job. And he’s lucky kan~

Pss- As soon I type this entry, I’ve remember that I had homework from the English Class.

Movie Puss in boots

Hari Ahad lepas tengok wayang kejap. Kejap tak la kejap..sanggup tengok Puss in boots 3D first time cerita kartun camgini. First time tengok 3D tengok cite Harry Potter. Tapi ni kartun, pon sebat jugakla sebab kawan ajak. Aku tengok dengan didi, janji pukul 10 klua, tapi sampai sana naik train time 11 jugakla klua sampai pastu dapat menapak kat dalam Time Square. Aku jugak kena tunggu didi kat luar train hang tuah. Nak tengok filem tu pon bukannya sejam lepas tu tapi pukul 2petang

Pusing kat Time square bukannya best sangat, bagi pendapat aku la. Lain orang lain taste. Aku tak pernah suka pergi Time Square pon semenjak blind date aku dengan Afiq tak de pape. Bukannya memori kenangan silam, tapi aku memang tak sukala tempat shopping camtu. Aku bukannya jenis kaki shopping. Kau cuba agakla tengok train jauh ke tepi situ pastu kita nak kena jalan sampai ke tempat mall segala tu. banyak halangan dan alasan tersendiri kan.

Ops, Cerita puss in boots sebenarnya cadangan Didi yang teringin sangat nak tengok gambaran filem kucing bercakap banyak ni. Overall cerita yang macam aku rasa sangat tiut..bila mata dia dibulatkan dan manja. Puss you’re my fav cat. Kalau nak tau plot cerita ni. Puss in boots membesar kat kawasan perumahan anak yatim dengan Humpty Alexander Dumpty (Egg) pastu ada konflik dari segi hubungan. Lepas Puss dapat nama as hero, Humpty kena tinggal jadi unfames. Pastu Humpty cuba balas dendam persaudaraan dia tu lepas dia jumpa balik dengan Puss. Ending cerita ni, Jack and jill and the bean stalk tu adventure. Kisah angsa emas tu cuma nak amik harta benda pastu jadi hero balik.

Si kitty ni makwe Puss and lastky they live happily ever after lepas si egg and puss berbaik.

Ps- masa sampai kat TS mula-mula singgah tempat beratur amik tiket, pastu makan KFC sebenarnya nak melepak dengan borak je, pastu teman kan didi pegi Cold storage sebelum nak balik. Tak tersangka aku yang kawan aku ni jenis bercerita keburukan orang satu persatu. Aku pon tukang dengar. Aku terkejut pastu nak balik tanak fikir sangat.

Pss- Gambar kat TS dengan didi tanak femes. so tak amik la gambar

Cari kerja lah

Assalamualaikum.

Hari ni macam dilema betul. Pagi tadi pergi kelas English talking and it was fun and I'm enjoyed. Balik rumah aku dah plan nak try interview general clerk kat Taman maluri tu. Result dia memang aku dapat tapi aku explain kat kakak Rama aku ada kelas talking English. So aku mintak la kerja part time sejam rm4. You can count on me. Besok bole start from 9 – 6pm. Aku balik dari sesi interview tu aku lepak pegi beli rojak telur tanak sayur bungkus balik rumah. Sebenarnya aku pon nak try kerja kat Habib. Tapi sebabkan aku dah amik borang Habib masa job fair kat PWTC aku jadi macam teragak-agak nak mintak job situ. Sebab aku dah pon hantar resume and form. Tapi walk in interview tak ada. Balik je rumah aku dapat msg kat tempat yang aku apply clerk tu. Aku dapat msg dia suruh aku kerja next Monday and think about it. Balik rumah aku dah macam tak sedap hati nak cerita kan mama apa dah jadi. Tawakal je ye. Mode picture- surprised sebab kerja clerk tu sejam rm4 macam budak SPM pun bole dapat senang

Jumaat lepas aku dah try prepare nak pegi walk in interview Habib Jewel tapi tak confident. Seriously aku masuk Habib ofis aku cakap dengan receptionist dia.. aku nak masuk ni first time, tapi mianh receptionist tu cakap aku tak boleh masuk kalau tak ada requirement yang dia nakkan. Example thing yang dia nak kan tu macam Picture passport, Sijil, and others. Aku terus belah..sebab picture passport takde and aku tak berapa pasti nak apply position apa kat situ. Pastu aku lepak kat Cash & Converter shop (itu cerita minggu lepaslaaa)

Cari kerja ni susah kalau kita pilih dan asyik fikir kannnnnn. So, baru hari ni aku dah amik keputusan nak kerja ngan CIMB. Besok aku nak call balik and said Yes, I’m interested to work in your company. Lain-lain cerita kemudian la ye

Ps- Entry macam bahasa rojak.

Interview Day

Alhamdulillah Friday is the good day and so on.

Today morning, I got one called interview from CIMB bank then I said that okay I’ll come on 10.45 morning. At first interview with the people were okay but then, I felt that this is quite challenging position whether you can accept and do it or you can just let it go. I felt a bit down and thinking again. If I accept that job, I’ll have a job and get stressed out but if I don’t try that job still not working again. Then coming to class like doing the other same work. It’s hard but you need to decide and learn. This is your life and you know what you want. I get back home and the branch manager give me his card and told me to contact him if I’m interested to the job.

Back at home, I tell my mom about the interview and she advice me to try other job. I was thinking from my other friends that can help me to know the scope job of CIMB, and then my mom suggest me to call Kak Siti who work with MAYBANK. But at first, I called Yana which works with CIMB at Kl tower and she saids that post job is hard. I was sad a bit and thinking to do other job. When my mom called Kak Siti on behalf of me, I was touched and hopefully there’s a chance to work with big company. Who knows..

Second interview is to Habib Jewel on 3pm but unlucky. The receptionist was not friendly and I was not ready to get on walk in interview. I just take their form and get straight back to other place looking other things to do. I went to the Cash converter shop and actually was waiting from my friend named Fadilah which is still in interview at that moment.

I found accoustic guitar about RM 116, and I’m thinking to buy one at that shop. But then, I remember to keep your priority things to do. So I just get out from the shop. And go back home.

Ps- It’s hard to understand everything around us, what a day…do not rushing to what you don’t know what is coming because you don’t know what is coming up. I’m  in a learning process..that’s life :)

Unusual

Tak update pon semalam. Semalam buat apa je, pegi kelas talking English and terlambat pergi kelas. Aku ingat nak tambah semangat datang kelas awal sikit, tapi selalu jugak leka timing pergi kelas mesti nak dekat 10lebih sikit baru datang kelas. That’s a bad attitude okay. Still got time to improved my attitude. Malam sikit aku dapat mesej Aunty Afiz, pasal job kat bank. InsyaAllah ada peluang adala kot. Aku pon tak tahu nak rasa apa. Kalau ada job rezki tu ada kalau tak insyaAllah ada la yang lain. .ye tak. Aunty Afiz bukan unusual person, but maybe updated person. Itu hali aku pernah terbukak mulut cakap..kawan aku pergi CIMB interview kat Wangsamaju, terlepas mulut depan dia. Aku sepatutnya tak ceritakan benda tu kat dia. Tapi tercerita pulak. Kepoh sangat pehal and that’s unusual attitude from me. Eksaited sangat. Actually nak update something about the title with unusual person or place. Homework topic in English Talk

I’ve no idea to start this but it’s only in my mind is one of the person that I find interesting is of course Yuna. She is talented and well person. She’s a singer song writer and singer and a brand image. I admired her so much. Thank you to Yuna because of her music, she made our country are well known and get to other country. She expands her music in US, and I hope she can win in her Ajl; Anugerah Juara Lagu in this year. If I could wish she’s one of my cousin or my sister-hood I’ll be proud. It’s just a dream. and I am a proud to be muslim. Yuna

So the actual topic of unusal place that I would like to share is Bali. I’’ve been in Bali for three days. It’s a good experience going there for a vacation or honeymoon. I’ve been to Kuta Beach and playing with the sands, meeting the people and speaking like the Indonesian. I love to watch the sunset. It’s a nice scene to see and appreciate everything around us. I love eating the seafood. The good place to eat is at Jinbaran sea food which provides a fresh food like fishs, prawns, and marvellous food.

I also stop by at Tanah Lot. So, let me share some of the pic that I make it a memoriable moment here. I was there on 2009 and we packed some souveniers at Galuh. It’s a place where people keep buying traditional stuff from Indonesia and you keep it as memory okay? That’s all I can remember. Oh yep, My other siblings were not here because the last time I wasn’t with them when they were at Bandung and Jakarta. So in my trip, they were not here when I’m in Indonesia at Jakarta Lobak bulus and Bali.

@ Kuta Beach @Tanah Lot

What a sad story was when we are in vacation, my brothers and my maid had bad incident happen in home. Some burglar came into my house while they were sleeping. They took handphones, and money. Luckily, car keys were safe kept. Reports have been made and when we come back home, Along said he still okay and regret that had happen. That’s all okay. Bye

Lolo wedding

Assalamualaikum, entry harini nak share pasal semalam. Singgah wedding Lolo last minit. Thanks Lolo sebab tak tutup pintu dewan. Ecah sombong betei. Dah tukar num hp bukan nak habaq. Aku dengan baik hati suci murni carik member rapat dia pegi tanya dalam Fesbuk num baru ecah apa. Sengal punya kawan. Sebabkan aku takde kawan area Ampang yang rapat..aku just go with the flow. Dapat num ecah aku tanya nak pegi tak. Aku tunggu lepas kau balik keje. Kan aritu aku dah janji nak bawak kau sekali pegi tengok Lolo kahwin. Kau ingat aku janji longkang agaknya. Aku tak marah kan Ecah kerja kat Bangsar semalam sibuk. Tapi sampai balik rumah ke petang aku amik jugak dia nak pegi wedding Lolo. Bukan nak minta maaf sebab tak bagi num dia kat aku. Lagi dia kata aku busy, manade.

Tapi memang agak kecewa si ecah dah tukar num tapi takde ke perasaan sikit nak bagitau. Aku dah malas nak touching. Kau lupa kat aku lagi aku malas nak layan. Aku tak sempat nak jumpa Mimi, Lili, Anis, Farah. Dorang ni jenis suka datang wedding orang. Aku akan datang wedding member yang dekat KL dan agak rapat dengan aku. Asal kan kawan. kan? Jangan carik gaduh ngan kawan

 

Ps- Pictures kahwin takde. Malas aku nak cerita panjang.

Pss- Harini pun pegi wedding jirang lorong tanjung 2, meriah noks. anda pula bagaimana > tanyakan diri sendiri

Q: How did you meet him

Today is Friday, and alhamdulillah. Kelas talking English is still going on and I didn’t come late. But there’s a new student. Lawa cantik manis dan semua sayang and I can see it really. Semestinya menjadi kesukaan dan pilihan student dan teacher yang lain. Aku makin kekok sebab dilayan berbeza daripada dia. Ya Allah, berani kan aku untuk bercakap dan perbaiki kelemahan dalam diri aku. So, I need to speak up to everyone with properly and clear so that everyone can understand. I noticed there’s a weaknesses and comparison between me and that new lawa girl. Her name is Poli..and she had good look like the Korean actors.So that's how I meet another new girl learning to talk in English

It is lucky you..poli because when you just enter class the other friends talk you with open. Comparing to my first time enter class, I just go with the flow and tried to talk and do my very best to adapt in that environment and learn English same like others with what I can do.

But it’s okay, even though I feel a bit low self esteem and I’m again alone and no one likes me. It’s a bit bored today, and I tried to be it in a good day. Lepas kelas, aku tak rasa happy sebab tergugat dengan pelajar baru. Actually, you should be friends la. But I don’t know why because I felt a bit tertinggal and idle, and after finished class I get straight to home. Supposedly I stop by Ampang point and look some books and do mailing. But I forgot about it and feel moody. 


At home, I was bored and asked Kak Ida suddenly on how her first met with her husband.
Mula-mula rasa macam nak tanak tanya. Tapi aku tanya ngan sms jela. But rupanya dia call handphone aku. Aku tak mau angkat sebenarnya call kat handphone. So dia call through telefon rumah. Yang tu aku terus angkat sebab nombor rumah punya bayaran takdela setinggi nombor handphone. Alasan..padahal malu nak cakap sebabnya aku dah mula tanya pasal love. I’m not use to it but I’m learning..Jodoh takkan datang bergolek, tapi kena ada usaha. Tapi kan bagus kalau lelaki yang mulakan dulu. Ini kan aku yang terhegeh-hegeh nak berkenalan dengan Fatah. Cakap sepatah, 10 patah jawab. Pastu takde idea nak ceritala.
Mengikut cerita Kak ida dia kenal abang Zaid dia (suaminya) masa kat kolej, nak temankan kawan dia nama Yanti amik sijil. Time tu kak ida tumpang la kereta abang Zaidi sebab nak temankan kawan nya nama Yanti. Pastu dah teman pegi makan..masatu  bertiga. Lepas tu Abang Zaidi start calling Kak ida. Sengaja nak call tanya Yanti..padahal ada hati dengan kak ida. So dorang start keluar bersama pastu tunang, pastu kawin. Kata kak ida, dorang kenal masa berkawan tak lama..maksudnya tu serius relationship.

Ps- Aku dah mula mengkaji satu perhubungan masa bercinta antara awak dan dia, so siapa nak start dulu..kita kena berkawan sebab itu lah satu permulaan yang penting

English class and others

Today is a good day. Alhamdulillah, and I guess if you want something, then you need to pray and ask Allah. Allah knows the best. The class talking is okay and I tried to participate and engage in the classroom together with other. Even though I’m not a good talker, I’m just sitting and coming to the class with all friends and teacher.

Actually I did some homework yesterday and we learn it together today. Luckily, my mind is able to think quick from before. It happened when what Sashi write and I give some ideas and she wrote on the whiteboard. You’re a student and you can share some stories too. I had several problems talking in English which I’ve noticed is.. I’m not as friendly like others, I’m not good with speaking in front of people, and I always like to think what people said. The main thing is, I’m still learning to improve my ownself. Help me Allah, only you know what’s the best. Please guide me to be better person.

Moreover, there’s a news about my finding job. Before English c lass started, I received my mom call, she’s from clinic with Akram. It’s about job with CIMB. I manually send a resume to Kak Afiz yesterday, when mama told me she can help me with it. So I just try, I tried to call Kak Afiz and she told me back to send resume to certain email address. I was just noted and do as well she had told me. InsyaAllah everything goes well, and hopefully I manage to get my own job. InsyaAllah..

Ps- English written just today, English should be fun

Awkward days

Assalamualaikum, rasanya dah lama jugak tinggalkan blog biasa ni. So personal blog ni just berkaitan diri aku yang tak seberapa haaa. Sejak kebelakangan ni, aku rasa macam dilema. Mak aku masukkan aku kelas english talk, yes for a month with 12 lesson it should be useful for my ownself. And practices make perfect. The past few days I always got messages that I am not supposed to receive. Which is why I am trying to say is…use wisely with your number contact. eh english writing kaaa..

SCENE 1

Haa…cani cerita dia, Along yang aku kenal tinggal kat Terengganu ada add Facebook and he ada messages me with facebook and tried to get close with me. Faham? Gaya dia mesej macam nak berjiwang, bukannya aku nak perasan bajet hebat. tapi boleh dikatakan setiap hari dia akan mesej. Aku tak pernah nak suka kat dia selain daripada rasa hormat adik kepada abang. Just aku rasa kita ada batas perhubungan. Kau mintak nak dating ngan aku..padahal aku kata nama dating pada outing cukupla. Kau mula kata …cyg taktik tu akan jadi dan nak perangkap aku layan kau semua. Aku tak mengharapkan satu hubungan persaudaraan kita daripada sepupu jadi in a relationship. Sorry to say the truth, aku tak berani nak mesej dia since semalam bila dia mula bertanya, buat apa..mak masak apa. Minta maaf Along, bukannya Dayah nak sombong ke apa. Macam tak mau bagi harapan dan perasaan yang berlebihan Along yang macam nak jaga hati orang kl yang sangat sombong ni..cakap je la apa je aku tak mau peduli, aku kena tahu kau ada hati lelaki aku ni perempuan.

Hari ni pulak aku dah dapat dua mesej dia kata sorry kalau ada buat apape silap. No..xde apa silap. Aku memang tak salahkan kau. Maafmu saja eh kata xde silap, tapi aku rasa janggal tahu dak. Jangan layan macam aku kekasih hati kau cari la. Sebab tu aku kata jangan lekakan diri sendiri ter-biar ter-leka sambil bagi harapan padu kat kau yang sedang mencari calon isteri gitu.

SCENE 2

Sabtu lepas mama ajak me and her others friend to eat together. Motif perjumpaan tu sebenarnya nak bagi aku tengok anak buah Aunty Suraya namanya Fatah Ishak. Ala..sort of blind date tapi bukan blind date. kita just chill je makan buffet mama belanja kat KDE. Fatah tu tak tahu langsung aku datang kena tengok dia. Faiz siap sakat aku pandang sana sini, Kak ida, mama duduk bertentang, tapi aku duduk jauhla nak pandang sangat Fatah tak de rasa apa. Sebenarnya aku tak rasa apa sangat masa jumpa depan mata aku angkat mee kari depan dia. Bukan untuk dia, but Aunty dengan mama. Dia sibuk borak dengan Aunty kesayangan dia, aku layankan Faiz cakap tu.

Aku bukanla seorang perempuan yang jenis manja dan tergedik sangat nak carik calon suami. SEBABKAN mak aku je kata IKUT JE ikutla, so sampai bila boleh kau independent kalau IKUT JE..aku masih mencari jalan untuk berdikari dengan berani.

Betulla, kalau nak cari pasangan, cinta tu tak boleh dipaksa, sebab kalau ada keserasian tu mungkin jodoh tak kemana. SEMUA dah dirancang, balik je dari makan, Aunty su tanya kan mama..cuba berbaik dengan Fatah. Aku mulanya segan nak cerita panjang, dalam hati aku, kalau kau betul serius nak berkawan..MUNGKIN kau yang akan mulakan persahabatan. TAPI rupanya aku yang disuruh MAMA amik number tepon dia cubala berkenalan. Aku tak expect apa pasal cari jodoh ni, tapi kita boleh berkawan sudalaa.

Aku mesej dulu salam Maalhijrah, nasib baik dia balas. Aku nak mesej pon teragak-agak sebab mak aku yang paksa siap nak ajar bagai..nak rak. Aku bukan xreti semua ni, tapi jangan la buat aku yang desperate. Aku memang dah segan bila mama pass nombor dia petang tu, so aku decide nak mesej lepas isyak around 8.29, he message me back around11 malam. aku layan je sampai pukul 1245 pastu dah tertidur. Malas aku nak layan kalau kau buat nak tanak.

Aku dapat tau dia keje kat AIA.. ada kereta Toyota Camry < i hate kereta Toyota sebab otai gedabak, and I don’t know why bak buy his car with Vios Toyota. And never been drive that car…because of no interest. Ok pasal Fatah tu dia add Facebook aku, dan aku sekali lagi mesej dia dengan bahsa kan encik fatah. nak manja ke gitu tengokla xsampai ke mana kot, last time mesej aku tanya kenapa dia xmakan kat kde, and the last part aku just say take care,

Ok bye, never been asked to face this awkward moment but Allah only knows why.

Ps- I hope i have a job and passed my last exam

Superfan yuna, and yuna..

nadia is lucky here, mungkin dia salah satu peminat teramat lagilagilagila kan yuna. oke aku jeles dan dengki, aku tak ada masa nak stalk yuna sekarang,finals exam is coming and report nak kena catch up. nadia.. youuuu masuk international website lepas kena interview la glemelahhh, read pasal she is superyunnie (yunnie..comel la yunnie er, aku xsuka nama tu actually…tapi redha haha jeles ke, dah memang tula nama peminat fan dorang bubuh, read here because of what yunnie)

http://bubbleberry.tumblr.com/

wait, napa post pasal superfan but not yuna..argh, takpe 2in 1 category

“And my boyfriend [Laughs]. I have a really good relationship with my boyfriend. He is like my best friend. We talk like 300 times a day. He’s like one of the stable things in my life, and I know I can count on him if I’m down or tired with work.” (> 300 times waw..good best friend ney)

-from yuna interview here

ok, dear yuna yang aku leplep dan yang busy, i wish i know you more, but crap tu semua berangannnn

 

Ps- hoping that i can do well with online test today

Petang

Waktu mula petang, langit berubah warna, waktu mula petang, kanak-kanak di suruh masuk ke rumah di ingat jangan main nyorok-nyorok sampai ke petang takut di apa-apa kan, waktu petang sebelum maghrib aku bagaikan diarah automatik oleh diri sendiri untuk mandi sebelum malam, dan waktu petang kerja kan perkara yang sepatutnya dilakukan kerja-kerja lain.

Petang tadi aku temani mama, petang tadi aku beli barang rumah untuk mengisi barang yang telah kehabisan, petang tadi juga aku minta mama belikan jagung panas belanja kan makan, aku dengan petang, sekian.

 

Ps- Muhasabah diri dan kerja melalui entry petang tadi, petang entry aku memang bosan, supposedly to control myself and speak with english stories, sigh, okbai

Marahkan satu perkara !

My cat pee on my bed, stinky cat, damn, no more miss lovely dayah to meow, this is war

 

ps- i love you too amani, sorry not related picture

Twisted feeling and unlucky or what

Today is Saturday, got woke up earlier than the other day and Alhamdulillah it was good and okay, pray for tahajjud and felt relieved than the past day, because of lazyness to pray tahajjud and today is the day, then as Subuh pray finished, and opened Quran for study a bit of Imam Amru before read it to Cikgu house, then open FYP and IB work, but never manage to focus what type of working need to settle with proper. Will get another time to do with it, InsyaAllah.

Unlucky when finish preparing stuff to Cikgu class, but however the class canceled by mama called, she got message from Cikgu but for me, never get in  touch to my own Cikgu, a bit frust because I feel everytime I get to do things, mom always there, she’s just like my shadow...ok snap out of that, so I tell back the story, I get downstairs early today too, guessing to help mom’s work like cooking and cleaning kitchen, it’s okay then, no class but hoping other stuff can do with hot. Such as FYP and IB.

Unlucky to that I’ve noticed invited to go to one event from my old friend back when I was working as trainees about 6 months and he is like the a collegue good worker back moments in year 2009, at Uzma company, his name Rizal, got used to call him Abang Rizal and he always make me smile and he’s soooo cool whenever he treat me lunch and meals, I wish to get a real brother like him, or maybe some good character of husband like him, he’s married person. but I know what our limit relationship. Just a little sister and good worker to him, Ya Allah please help me to meet this good type of person one day, and I could not resist to see his invitation about Open day Smart Reader, at Shah Alam, I’m not married yet with no kids, so where is the point objective for coming to the invitation right, and yes i am unlucky, cannot attend and pretend you’re married to go to see Abang Rizal, another chances please.. let me meet this kind of good person, Amin,

I never get to say goodbye to Abang Rizal when he resign at Uzma, so let me realize this is where I knew that I’m not trusted person or any kind of important person to him, but weird thing is..is it weird maybe for me, err he did call me for the last time and say sorry  any wrong doing from him to me, same goes to me it’s okay and I love you brother,

Another part I’ll never forget when I work there, the other staff were kind of fishing Rizal and me had something special relationship and good I put my status facebook is single, the other worker noticed my personal stuff, and I answered back for a safe cool respond that, I am not interested him, (back then remembering the moments the other worker were smiling and understand what am I saying that he’s married and I will never ever play to other man like that. If he was not married, I’ll start pick a line and love him. sigh,

Sorry for letting this blog to express my own feeling a bit and I feel good and better person. So forget the past thing, and improve to be better person at this present and future.

 

he wear specktacles and tall, i’m shy when everyone did surprise party on my 21 year old birthday moment, ok bai memories, everything is past right, so start looking for good mission wish list, to finish studies, get work, get good husband. amin

 

Ps- sometimes, fake smiles is good to other expression, and prentending everything is okay

Random recipe and today is today

I just open on one blog and i noticed a doctor blog, her entry was so-so and kind of interesting to do, but here i found her recipe of nasi ayam penyet, please google if you don’t know that kind of easy food:

The ingredients:

1. cili segenggam- besar dan kecil pandai2 la adjust nak pedas camana
2. belacan
3. bawah putih 2 ulas
4. bawang merah kiut2 dalam 3 ulas
5. minyak 

cara2:

1. goreng semua bahan2 dengan minyak. hati2 tau cili tu pom pom.
2. dah masak agak2 korang, jangan garing tau, korang pindah la masuk blender or lesung batu
3. apa lagi, giling la or blend sampai halus

Done

“okay yang penting tu kan sambalnya.” > her entry says like it is easy to make, but for me..do you think i can handle this or what –.* and some features or add on what she says > “jadi korang sila la sediakan ayam goreng, tempe goreng, terung goreng, ape2 jela yang korang suka goreng untuk dimakan bersama sambal ni”

“jangan lupa lalapannya - ulam la maksudnya. biasanya yang dimakan dengan tempe penyet ni adalah timun batang, kubis, kacang panjang, daun kemangi.
dah..makan dengan nasik panas2. nak sedap lagi , makan dengan kicap sket. opss kicap dari indonesia tau. contohnya kicap Bango atau kicap ABC yang dah masuk ke Malaysia”

Just for sharing, if i did manage to do this recipe successfully  i’ll capture picture, so that’s all, bye

Ps- Today, i’ve started study Quran with Imam Amru

Bak went to Oman

It’s been fun raya on this year, but it was a while happiness to our family, remembering the last year raya was off and uninteresting. But we got to pay back this year raya and victory was our. Actually everything come for a reason, this year we celebrate raya together with bak  when he fly back to Malaysia from Oman and take chance to met other relative. It was good. But only the exciting of receiving duit raya is getting decreased, this was my last year of getting duit raya i guess this year, because this is the last year I’ll be studying. Hopefully manage to finish study in this year and able to contribute something for my ownself, mama and bak and others and so on.

Today, bak fly to Oman around 4am in Malaysia and arrived around 9/10 am in Malaysia. It’s 4hour of duration from KL Malaysia to Oman. Well, that’s all for a small piece entry here. I’ll be missing you bak, i mean we overhere. We hugs Bak before he get to KLIA, and it is touched feeling and a bit tear for awhile for saying take care and bye bak. May Allah let Bak happy to do what he like to do. May ALLAH let us cheer the enjoy moment together and love each other as happy family. May Allah help my Along get his new job. May Allah helps me and my brother good in studies and achieved our own target. Ok bye

Wordless wednesday !

Ha ha, minta maaf.

Aku banyak kerja sekolah nak setel tapi ym terbukak la kan, sila terus delete contact ym kalau xkenal orang itu bila masa perlu, okbai

Raya 2011

Antara pengalaman raya 2011-:

1. dapat duit raya Rembau RM10 dari saudara jauh, aku sepatutnya xdapat tetiba dapat, syukur alhamdulillah

2. dapat buat kuih raya satu jenis tapi dah habis masa raya ke-4, heppp kena buat lagi kuih raya balik, aish

3. saudara yang agak rapat kat Pontian, Johor dah bertunang masa raya ke-tiga, umur dia 20, maybe next year dia kahwin kot, wu wu.

4. keputusan muktamad xpergi ke DFP Yuna 13th september, walaupun nak pergi tapi xdapat, mak suruh jangan obses sangat, takpe, samat ari raya yuna

 

5. dapat kad raya daripada kawan-kawan hebat sporting and cool sebab tak mintak pon dorang bagi, aku siap tampal kad raya kawan kat depan tv plasma rumah, xpenah penah dorang bagi kad raya tetiba bagi, mode raya tengok kad raya tetiba #happy

So, apa lagi ek pengalaman raya 2011? Enjoy dan selamat merapatkan hubungan silaturrahim bersama

 

Ps- abang saya birthday ke-25 on 1st sept, samat ari muda Along (picture raya aku ada lah tu kat entry dia) selamat hari raya semua umat islam

Please don’t act good

I got some good advice from my mom today, don’t be rude and please don’t act good when you’re not good actually. She’s getting upset because of my aunt. Supposedly we meet and greet today together dear Aunt before raya and mama can pay money for kuih raya to and give her some berkat raya such as foods or not for this year. But unfortunately, my Aunt just being selfish. She come to our house quickly when we are at Pasar and she off to other place without meeting. Mom called her back why can’t she call before coming to house. This message has been stated before today message.

What a type of not close relative, even if I had chance to keep close with this kind of cousins or relative, I rather to be not nice. It is good time to meet together when long time have not meet with other but overall it’s awkward but please don’t forgot to smile even you feel that awkward. I don’t like this kind of people when they can act good to everyone but the reality is not. Improve yourself, you’re not little kid need to teach what things need to do. oh btw, that advice is to my own self. Unlucky to me, this year I help out my friends’ sale kuih raya, but now I am the one don’t get any benefits with it. What I mean is, my friend should be considering me with the sale amount of kuih raya. She assume that I would bank in total RM240 SAHAJA in her account CIMB. Please be considerable. We’ve been friends since diploma but now I knew, she’s not the good friend that I should have.

To my Aunt and my friend named, Mak mah and Intan, Thanks for not helping out. May Allah help to pay your all kindness.

Ps-Upset Dayah, salam Syawal, please be good with me and hopes you get a lots of duit raya.

Courtesy of picture google duit raya

Old messages from fesbuk

Ini dalam fesbuk around 2009. boleh klik. Message lelaki gedik yang penah aku dapat-la, haha, sila delete semua message lama anda dalam fesbuk okay, nak tahu apa aku buat lepas dapat message cani, unfriend. cinta muka buku memang xcool. this is all rubbish

I’ve met this guy when i was around form 4-5 because of coming to tuisyen-lah, I’m forced to got to know this guy because he is working there as the driver lah, but somehow i always feel strange whenever or every time he’s watching me, and after I finished my SPM, i got into college and lost all contact and btw he’s not my friend actually, but he’s just my other pak cik that i used to hormat him. He’s not anyone to me but just pak cik, okay pak cik van pegi balik ke tuisyen, ok bai.

Ps- Tuisyen ke Tuition supposedly to spell in english, lantaklah alahai

Useless

Happy Ramadhan on 19th-day,

Today is Monday, i got excited monday ay and that’s not funny, to tell the truth is i brush myself early morning before the class should start, and i am trying to change myself to every class early today. It was okay but then i felt some strange feeling back thinking where are my other friends because of looking at the time, there were not no friends i’ve known around the class.

Suddenly i message my friend name kak nik, she’s super senior in our class that age around 26, I asked “pukul berapa kelas bims,”, she answer back, “hari ni xda class”.

Oh poor you dayah, coming class with good effort today but useless, I should always try ask friends before coming to class, is there a class or what so ever,

Please don’t do this at me again, please always be alert, then you would not get dissapointed. again i’m coming to class but there’s no classes, equals to useless.

Bye

Nothing personal

As time goes on, apa ek aku nak kata makin cepat masa berjalan, makin banyak kita dapat banyak pengalaman, cepat je masa tu pergi macam angin, kita kena belajar menghormati orang tua ye kan, apa sahja la bila kita bercakap dengan orang ke sesiapa saja, kita kena faham dulu apa dia tanya, pendek kata cakap gunakan akal.

I got laugh from my brother’s attitude today,

he is getting 25 this year but doesn’t act like what his age is. He was driving mama’s car today and mama was sitting beside him. Mama give him lecture when are you going to save money when you always get iftar outside with friends, and when are you going to hear mama’s advice, blablabla such as to use the same direction to get to our home easily. Then, they got fight together on that small issue because of my mother little nagging. My mama was upset and said “kau berdosa dengan mama”

My brother just ignore what was mama saying and he get upstairs quickly. Back at that evening, he said sorry to mama, and hopefully he does not fight and answer on every or each advices mama said. it suppose to be good advice to his own future. For sure mama lecture to what the best needs for her kids,right?

You’ve got to be patient

Salam ramadhan for 18th day we have puasa.

It’s raining now, and I guess everyone might get some sleep for a while. Rest and sleep for peace. HEHE. Let me explain, what did I did for today in this entry. You might noticed my entry should be in English as what I am trying to learn to improve myself with good English..and so on.

It’s Thursday, and I got ONE exam International business for today afternoon. I got out from home today early about half an hour to get myself not coming late to the class. The class was okay but the exam was upredictable. It was hard to answer by answering the real questions are. I can’t believe that I just answer that subject with a piece of paper and didn’t finish to answer. It’s terrible and bad. Can’t score for this Test One. and I hope you’ll get passed and flying colours. Amin.

I got another job on myself to do something, and after classes I went to the Bank CIMB and learn to use ATM machine to bank in money. I bank in to the loser man name ffaz. For this entry information, I did find one web designer and he is the one that help me to my work. He supposedly need to help me on my project to be finished. But I’m not really interested or impressed to his work and it results me to frustration. Maybe it’s my fault on learning with this type of man. I don’t need to learn with this kind of people actually because of had to. He’s kind of strict and no sense of humor and sensitivity to me and use everything ym with kasar to me. I’m frustrated to this thing the real is.

I tried to ym him and be good today but unlucky to me when I try to continue our last topic if I get a job to him from one guy then I can get his services that charge around RM 50. This thing is playing on my head and you got to be kidding me for looking him a job and entertain him doing his work. He’s such a bad one person I’ve ym. Better I give him RM150 if I don’t get him real job. Life is not so good that you really want is. I am learning to be patient and patient.

Ya Allah, help me and guide me to be better person. Amin

Ps- You cannot try to be friendly when you don’t know the starnger really is, just keep yourself patient and patient

My head is not good

A lots of thing I've been thinking like mad and still spinning in my mind. About 5 think that made my day was bad. And purposedly causing my head is spinning around. Please give me good health and others,

- First, my Final year project is still in a progress and messy, because of my title project that should be related to business and IT sort of e-commerce, I just found out that my each chapter are getting worst. I made my mind to stick with research project rather than system prototype but unfortunately, my second assessor told me that it should be in a system and you should prepare for it.

- I got worried about my presentation and academic class. Furthermore, the FYP project is still haunting me to do as fast as you can because running time.

- I am fasting but somehow I just knew that something is not good, and yes today i'm period. I break my puasa in my room with drinking water and eat some biscuits and open my laptop to get my mood to do on FYP again correctly.

- I got bad dreaming of my mom is laughing at me because of my own boobs. Dreaming is like an imagination. Whatever

- I need to find one expert person in web design. Ya Allah please help me

Ps- Ya Allah please forgive my mistake for letting the time gone so fast and if I am not the ONE appreciating the hours that you have given, Ya Allah please guide me to the right track in my life and do a correct project. Ya Allah please protect my Bak in Oman, please protect my families here and happy always as we can. Amin

Birth-day pakcik chan comel

I guess i would like to start writing in English through this entry and so on. It would be great and helping myself on improving my english and others. Yesterday was pak cik chan comel birthday. Actually abang chan was cool and sporting person. His birthday on 25th July. I was like a stalker to his Facebook before this, because I like his attitude. but not anymore. I respect him. He’s still young and single but I understand he must be un-available. He is the type of handsome guy and friendly to everyone. Back to the story telling that I wished him a happy birth-day. Before that, I opened his Facebook wall and watch each wishes came from his friend. So, I started to type a comment and said to someone’s wall:

N: lama xketemu.happy birthday.(there’s another wish before me, and it was his friend that i’ve met)

Hidayahjamal: “tumpang lalu, happy birthday chan:) (I just interfere this wall purposely)

Chan: “terima kasih. Sayang korang berdua (He comment it back and fast)

I click on my mouse with like to his comment and never answer it back

H: I love you too chan (actually i would like to answer but never had guts about it..he’s just like a brother and kind, good gentleman)

Happy birthday Abang chan, may Allah bless you and may you find to search the beauty girl for your wife, he’s 27 in this year. For the last year, he had treat my friend, Umairah and me at the gardens, Midvalley at the Italianese restaurant (that was my first time eating there). And we gave him yellow card for a thank you. I hope he would treat me a cake or a card saying that he’ll married soon. I also gave him a present for the last time we met at Dataran Merdeka, gave him frame with Yuna, a bag with cute snow ball, I miss to meet him, this should be a secret, okbai :)

Pic were taken: on his birthday last year 1/8/2010 when we met and gave him our yellow card, abang kacak boleh belanja kan cake tak :P

Tak tahu kenapa penat

Semalaman aku tidur lepas isya’ pastu bukak laptop, ingat kan nak bukak laptop nak betulkan report by chapter tapi tak buat. Penat. Aku temani mama pergi Ampang point malam tu sekejap untuk beli barang keperluan mama lepas tu terpaksa lah singgah jugak kedai-kedai yang mama berkenan, mungkin penat lepas meronda tu lah yang menyebabkan aku ketiduran

 

Semalam jugak aku dah habiskan jualan kuih raya, tak akan bawak kuih raya sana dan sini sebab order itu akan ditutup hari jumaat. Dalam masa ramai member order kuih, kelakar jugak rasanya dapat jadi penjual kuih raya, member lelaki kat kelas yang tak pernah bercakap dengan kita tetiba cakap, “aku nak kuih raya mocha…”, aku harap dorang bayar duit deposit tulah sebab aku guna duit sendiri sebab duit deposit RM10 dorang tak dahulukan dulu. Sebelum tu aku dah promote kat lecturer tapi tak mahu aku cakap banyak sebab ada yang tak berminat, nak harga kurang lah and so on. cerewet.

 

Petang tu, aku balik dari kolej dalam pukul 4petang, naik train dan motor yang parking dekat dengan bawah jambat. Aku balik rumah dulu, tukar baju pastu pergi bank in duit bag yang aku nak beli dekat sam. Aku pegi je bank dah tutuplah rupanya bank CIMB, time tu pukul5. Memang sesia datang tak boleh bank in. Aku dapat panggilan tetiba daripada BSN pasal pampasan duit perlindungan, dia kata terhad dan benda ini khas untuk pelanggan BSN yang tertentu. Aku sebenarnya bersetuju sebab aku tak ada wang untuk cover diri dan keselamatan aku, aku sedar kita tak tahu bila masa kita agan guna, so kita kena sediakan payung sebelum hujan cuba kalau satu masa nanti, aku ter-kemalangan, duit tak ada pastu nak menyusahkan mak ayah lagi, so aku decide on that spot, aku SETUJU pastu ada polisi next step akan datang kat rumah. Kalau ikutkan ajen perlindungan macam Prudential kena kan RM200+ sebulan, tapi BSN cuma potong RM25 dalam akaun setiap hujung bulan, akibat perbualan yang aku terima ni aku terpaksa pegang telefon dekat 45 minit. Sebab tu la aku tak sempat pergi bank, sekian.

Ps- duih jual kuih raya membuatkan aku tak ada duit belanja sekarang

Mahu masuk kelas Bahasa English

 

Cepatnya hari ini dah Selasa. FYP masih lagi dalam progress. dan aku tak masuk kelas kat kolej dah x lewat, okay good. Sebab FYP aku agak teruk, aku mintak tolong abah aku kat Oman,  dan tolong cek report and language english aku. Super tak terror buat report. Patutlah BM BI aku tak ada A masa aku jawab SPM dulu. Dahla ada masalah language pastu tak ada idea apa yang nak di ceritakan. Apa kah kau ni baru tahu, dah tua baru nak belajar improve language ke. Eh bukan ke ilmu itu tak kira mana saja kau amik ada saja berkat nya dimana-mana. xkisahla at least ada usaha nak berubah ye kannnnn.

Aku dinasihatkan abah untuk masuk kelas English. Good for your future to power your knowledge and work interview.

Ps- sekarang suka dengar lagu aishiteru

Pergi kelas menuntut ilmu

 

Semalam aku datang kelas dengan lewat, aku sediakan buku dan kelengkapan masuk ke dalam beg, lepas tu aku perasan motor aku yang rosak ada kat bengkel, aku tak boleh amik kat bengkel lagi sebab dorang belum repair, agak marah sebab total kos repair minyak hitam, bateri masa hari ahad dah RM105, lepas tu hari isnin nak amik tak siap dia tukar starter dah RM120, aku amik motor lepas pukul 4pm dan bayaran sume duit ini dekat RM225. Sedih tengok motor.

Masa pergi kelas okay je tapi ada sorang dua member lelaki macam xsuka je kat aku, aku ni agak sensitif kalau budak lelaki bebel tak kena tempat pasal aku. Mungkin salah aku sebab mula dulu. Masa aku masuk kelas memang lewat setengah jam, dah la panas, motor rosak la nak kena train, insyaAllah perkara lewat ini akan aku elakkan pada esok hari. Lelaki satu kelas aku namanya M kata dah la masuk lewat kat aku menyindir semacam, oke aku senyum sebab dia tak selalu cakap dengan aku tapi tetiba cakap. Memang salah aku datang lambat

Lelaki lagi sorang kat kelas aku namanya W kata perangai aku semacam tapi aku sedih pulak bila dia sindir perangai aku yang bosan dan poyo. Member ini namanya W bersuara besar, cakap sedap hati, umurnya pun dekat 27tahun ini. mungkin salah aku, mulanya aku kata kat dia, lama tak nampak, dia kata busy, pastu aku tertanya kenapa nampak happy je kang menangis pulak, pastu dia jawab abis takkan nak perangai macam kau tu, hmm niat nak berkawan dengan W tapi bila dengar cakap gaya dia bersahaja dengan emosi yang menyakitkan aku buat aku berubah fikiran..aku tak patut cakap banyak kat kau, so angkat tangan di bahu dan mata di atas. Jangan layan sangat nanti stress.

Masa aku cakap dengan dia, dia dah asyik sengih macam kambing tapi aku dah sedih sebenarnya dengan gaya dia tunjuk tu kutuk kat diri aku. Aku kata kau jangan lah ikut aku, terus belah dari dia dan berhajat tak ingin berbaik atau bercakap dengan dia. InsyaAllah. Bila kita masuk kelas ilmu ada masa kita perlu buat ada masa kita tak perlu buat, Jangan sedih kan saya. Sekian.

Scene

Hari ini aku balik rumah lewat sebab hal kolej, aku sebenarnya tertarik pada beberapa scene yang aku rasa tak patut terjadi. Masa scene itu ada gap nak pegi kelas, mulanya ramai kawan ajak sepakat xpayah pegi tapi aku pegi kelas petang. Tapi sebelum tu dah makan kat cafe kolej pastu balik rumah. Malangnya kawan aku xdatang kelas tapi aku datang jugak. Takpe, ada hikmahla tu.

Syukur, xnak ikut perangai malas.Omakngah, kena balik rumah dulu lepas tu datang balik kolej (first time buat perangai pegi balik ke rumah sendiri), nasib baik aku datang balik kolej, kalau tak pegi kelas terbiar. tak faham apa pon tak boleh buat kalau xtahu kan, nanti tak tahu nak tanya siapa terkial-kial pulak. Memang nasib baik aku datang kolej balik dalam pukul 3lebih, Alhamdulillah, Allah maha besar, dan membantu aku hambaNya yang berdoa untuk sentiasa di dalam perlindungannya. Ada teman jugak kawan sekelas perempuan satu course kat situ.

Sebab mulanya tak ada kawan. Scene kedua aku rasa aku kenal abang mamat ini, dengan tetiba dia kata aku kenapa sorang, aku jawab sajaje, dia soal lagi pulak, kenapa malu ke, ha ah aku iakan sahaja. Aku xtahu la kenapa tetiba asik bertanya kan kat aku. Aku harap as a friend yang caring (time tu aku tengah take notes) aku jawab dengan senyum aja. HAHA. Mulanya aku nak tarik muka, apesal mamat ni nak tanya semacam banyak pulak. Pastu aku fikir 2-3 kali tadek pape la. HAHA.

Kau jangan emosi sangat. Selesai scene ke-dua dan terakhir ini aku jumpa supervisor aku lewat petang. Aku bersyukur dapat supervisor yang cool dan baik, tapi aku perlukan seseorang nak ingat kan aku Bagaimana untuk selesaikan kerja FYP ini dengan lebih teratur. FYP kau markahnya sikit. Aku sedar yang aku tak pandai buat research. Sekian

Scene kat rumah pulak. Adik aku dapat pergi PLKN. HAHA !!

Pergi berjalan lepas kelas

Kelas dah bermula, tugasan dengan kerja rumah bertambahla dan akan bertimbun, kau kena usaha lebih kalau nak berjaya kan, insyaAllah aku akan cuba sedaya upaya, oh silap. cuba termampu bole kan. Mula keluar rumah pergi ke kelas kembali dengan berbaju kurung buat aku rasa rindu nak pegi kelas ngaji cikgu nor esah, tapi aku ada kelas pengajian aku kan. so kena buat yang penting untuk masa depan aku sendiri kan.

Lepas habis kelas dalam pukul 1.30 tu aku balik rumah, tapi sebelum balik rumah, ada pulak cerita lecturer aku berpindah mengajar tempat lain. sedih pon ada tapi malas lah nak layan perasaan. Aku terus balik besok mesti ada kelas lagi kan. Aku balik je, mama dah ready bawak aku jalan, kereta kat luar gate, sebenarnya aku pergi bank in duit yuran kolej rm2000. Aku rasa kalau aku xsetelkan duit penangguhan ni, memang tak jawab exam lag kau. Lepas bank in duit kat BSN, mama ajak temani beliau ke Ampang Point. Dalam kepala otak aku fikir kalau xbeli baju beli makanan, kalau tak ada barang beli tudung. rupanya beli barang raya mak aku baju baru dengan tudung baru. lawa la wehh. jeles sebenarnya, dah banyak kali aku tahan diri daripada nak beli barang berharga ni, aku tak berkemampuan nak beli barang baru sekarang.

Maka, berjalan temankan mama beli barang lepas selesai buat perkara yang patut. dan bye. oh, kami beli makanan sikit kat kedai pisang goreng je :)

Menangis kalau ikutkan emosi boleh buat aku marah

Hari khamis tu hari pendaftaran last semester aku kat kolej, aku harap aku takkan lalui sesi pendaftaran kolej lagi, sejak semester yang lepas dan lepas, aku tak penah la datang seawal yang aku sangka, aku datang time 8, register start pukul 9, semangat nya kau.

Aku ingatkan datang awal boleh la senang daftar pastu balik kejap nanti datang balik pukul2 ada taklimat FYP, rupanya tak. Aku ditahan sebab tak bayar duit yuran tunggakan rm6 280, itu baru baki duit yang sepatutnya aku dapat duit pinjaman tapi dorang xcover, setakat ni aku dah pinjam PTPTN, MARA, PAMA (parents) , pastu aku baru tahu aku dapat dana YPM RM3000 yang tu free tak yah bayar.

Aku nak cerita yang aku sangat marah pada diri sendiri, sebab hati yang lembik ini menangis, sebab aku kena tahan nak daftar dengan duit tak ada pastu nak bayar macam mana dengan yuran tangguh-tangguh tu, nak sambung belajar nex sem, maka aku ter-menangis lepas orang kewangan tu macam nak makan aku. Mungkin tu kerja kewangan, kewangan memang orang yang membosankan. Bukan aku tak nak bayar, first student, duit bukan main-main, parents aku ada hal masing-masing, lepas kena tahan dalam bilik konsultasi tadi aku rasa macam nak daftar besok, tapi aku kuatkan hati ini.

Aku tak jadi balik, aku mesej bak kat Oman tolong bayarkan duit yuran dalam bulan ini, memang lah aku sedar aku banyak sangat menyusahkan mama ngan bak, aku harap aku dapat balas balik jasa besar mama dan bak, sedih menangis sendirian time tu, aku tak dapat nak tolak menangis aje lah masa masuk kat dalam bilik konsultasi balik, aku cakap kat orang kewangan tu, minta maaf sebab saya ter-menangis, TERIMA KASIH!

Aku sebenarnya tak suka menangis, sebenranya jangan biarkan diri anda diselami emosi, fikirkan yang positif, xada apa yang senang, so terima je lah, kau dah nangis kat kolej, nanti jangan pulak menangis kat rumah.
Leceh kan kalau orang yang kuat nangis ini. Aku la tu, nak marah tak boleh, redha saja lah, aku sampai rumah lepas kat kolej semua dalam pukul 5, Sekian.

Says saya

saya sensitif sikit, kadang-kadang cepat tersentuh kalau ada orang kutuk ke, kadang-kadang pendiam tapi tak ada isi. saya baik tapi tak suka menyusahkan orang. saya orang biasaje, mcm orang lain. makan, minum dan tidur masih biasa dibuat macam orang lain,

kadang-kadang banyak berangan, ada la berangan nak kenal yuna, nak jumpa Imam muda Hassan sikit, saya suka Yuna. suka sangat dengan music Yuna, Yuna tu kadang-kadang macam selalu je dekat di hati kalau kita asik dengar lagu dia. Sekarang ke sampai bebila la saya suka yuna.
Saya sensitif hari ni sebab mak saya condemn saya jual kuih raya xseberapa. saya senyap, pandang mata diatas, tangan dibahu, apa pasal la ye, entry ini ber-saya, haha. sekali sekala, intro pasal diri saya.
Thank you.

Masak Caramel

Senang je nak buat caramel,

Bahan yang kena ADA:

Telur 7 biji
Susu pekat amik separuh
Sugar castard 3sudu
Gula 3 scoup untuk gula hangus
Air & wrapper nak kukus caramel

First, korang amik loyang bersihkan la. xkan la tu pun nak cite sini, keh3, tertaip excited siut. Amik gula bubuh dalam loyang sampai gaul cair. Jaga gula betul-betul, janganla hitam hangus pulak xjadi kang. Kejap je gaul dah cair letak terus kat loyang. Skill letak gula cair mesti ada kat korang punya. gelek-gelek kuali ngan loyang dah jadi sama rata tu setel la part gula.

Pastu amik bahan yang ini nak kena blend. macam 7biji telur, susu pekat letak la separuh, sugar castard bird 3 sudu, esen vanila letak sikit, campur air sikit aja. Pastu blend and letak la kat loyang yang dah kena gula cair tu. Amik la pengukus bubuh air awal-awal, pastu baru letak atas tu kukus pakai wrapper. Kukus la dalam 20 minit set pastu tutup. Lepas dah jadi bukak pengukus kuih caramel, sejukkang letak dalam peti sejuk, siap :)

Selamat makan !
pinjam pic caramel